Get Like Me ;)

As I turned 20,. on January 2nd this year, I was quite stunned. I could not believe that I have been living for 2 decades.!! I joked on my older sister last time, saying that she's no longer a teenager since she have reached 20. Aha,. and now I am in the circle,. well, I guess we are even now. I can no longer boast about being a teenager. Feeling all so wild and young and sort of stuffs -.- Time,. dude,.. you are ticking faster than I thought. Oh well,. every second counts so live your life to the fullest! Mm, I guess it is time for me to start an opening post for this new year of 2014,. and I think I'll start my year with my wishlist!

Most Wanted

1. Meeting Papa Francis 

Last time, I wished to meet Papa Benedict during the WYD, but it seemed like I have missed that opportunity. This time,. for sure,.. I really want to catch a glimpse of Papa Francis, even from far away. I do not mind seeing him as little from far, as long as I can see him with my bare eyes. I know, I'll be like *jaw dropping,..

2. Having A Dance Crew

I still remember the first dance I danced on Earth,. hahahaha^^ and from that day on, I know that dancing is one of my favourite hobby. I am happy to have been working with few crews since I was little till now. Dancing as a soloist is not as fun as having a crew. So,. I'm keeping my fingers cross to find a great crew soon xD 

3. Sky Diving 

I do not understand why but I keep on wishing this over and over again. I do not know how to explain this excitement but seriously, I want I mean, I need to do this! Sky diving, pleaseeeee! Let me do it once. *puppy eyes,..

4. Star Gazing 

This time,. it will be the stars! I started to like the stars when I was at Labuan. The night seemed so lonely while I was still awake,. doing my revisions. All I had was the stars. They accompanied my lonely nights with their beauty. Like crazy,. star gazing is just so fun. I am hoping to find a new star and named it after me. ;)

5. Popcorn Hunt

I may be a weirdo but do believe me,. I love popcorn. ^^ I am like addicted to it. It's like my favourite snacks than any other. Popcorn does it better! I am thinking of hunting them from shop to shop. Well,. they come in different flavours and different types of kernel and in different bucket sizes. It will be the greatest hunt on Earth, having to taste different flavours from different shops.. like wow, amazing! 

6. Singing For The Crowds 

I guess this is the most bizarre thing I would want to do. I mean, singing in front of a crowd of people,. whaaaat,.? -.- I must be crazy, I am. I know so. -_- I have always wanted to sing and portray my innermost feeling toward others  and in which I have no idea why. So,. let's keep it only but a wish. *cheers. 

Love Is You

Looking back at my own footsteps as I counted, there's only a pair of it. All of the times I thought I was walking alone, I never know that I wasn't walking. The love I had always wanted, missed, and yearned for, was the one that carried me. Those footsteps I saw, they weren't mine. They never were. They were His; love. 

That moment the wind blew, as I closed my eyes, I cried. I kept reaching out but you are far. Stay. That simple word, would it make any different? Stay. Would you listen as I shout out? Stay. You saw me. You saw me chocking,. while swallowing these miseries. Go. I was never worthy. Leave. I am forever ashamed. Love, I am sorry. 

That day, as I lift my head high the same wind that once blew me, still blowing. You stayed. Love, you never leave. O precious love,. I wish to grow old with. The same love that had always been loving me. For eternity, my soul only loves you. Love, it's you. You.  

Me

It's weird that I know too much. That little too much is no more little. It's weird that I keep my windows raining. That rain is no more leaving. Staying, keep on raining. No pain is bearable,. either way no pain is favorable. When pain grow us stronger, pain make sure to grow me weaker. How happy I am to leave pain, my ultimate parasite. How happy pain is to remain in me, a good host. If only pain is a person,. how happy I am to kill it. Even if pain is a human, I will still be killed by it. Pain is the winner. I remain a loser.

It's weird that I care too much. That little too much is getting little. It's weird that I still keep my windows raining. That rain is still there. Still raining, keep on raining. Love, the essential enemy of pain. Love aids what pain does. When love heal us, love wreck me like pain does. That one thing, pain.. sets infection to my one and only saviour, love. Should I love less,. so pain can leave love alone? Should I throw love away, so love won't be painful? Or should I let pain marries love, so that they create a new born heartless?

It's weird that I can't seem to be heartless. That the word heartless is missing from my own dictionary. That the word heartless remain an unknown species. The heartless someone may know,. may I be your best friend?