I say..., I love you. You?

For almost about few years back,.. the very super first time. The first sight my eyes laid on you. Out of all guys in the world,.. or should I considered myself lucky? Or to say that it was fate? It was such a blessing to know you.. to be with you, even in a short while. Those crazily wonderful memories I have spent with you would forever remain in my mind, though they will one day disappear. How I wish to carve those memories in my heart, as soon, they might kill me. Moving on to the next phase of my life, making me realise.. maybe these are all fake. I don't have the right to choose, for what I've chosen....I am,.. I don't simply create my own destiny.. nor can I redo my past. I never thought that this feeling towards you would hurt me badly. The love that grow together with pain,..makes it one of the strongest feeling ever. You once said,.. to be patient is to have the best of it. Well,.. I am growing. I am not "a Peter Pan", the boy that never want to grow, but longing to love. I am in a planet called Earth, living in a place called Miri. I don't simply fly to an unknown place, where the pirates live.. or known as Neverland. I stand on a real ground. I hope to understand this thing, and this thing only. I love you. YESS, I do! But, if loving you, torture both of our hearts,.. then. there's no point of loving. I know your pain. It hurts. It totally hurt. You've tried to find a way to look on the bright side. Still,.. you reflected back to your past. The torment seconds you've been through, I can understand. That torment is pure love. You truly love her. That's awesome. Sincerely, I adore your passion. *professional mode on. I, declare that I once love you and will continue on loving. But, I am no greed or selfish. To love you, is to make sure that you are happy. I pray for your everlasting happiness. Just to see you smile,.. I risk it all. You make me glow inside out. :] Thank you, for being wonderful.

** This explains it all. The pain now turns to,..? Shall see where this goes. ;))