can we possibly be...

Seeing those couples out they holding hands, staring straight into each other's eyes, having a great moment together,...reflect me to my own relationship. Making me thinking where did I make mistakes or I don't know.. my relationship ruined twice. The first love I had in 2009 was a wrecked, the second..? Worst! Was it me? Was it really my fault? 99.9% of me would agree. Yupp..it's been me all the time. Picky? Is that the suitable word? No! Frankly speaking, I need a man(matured guy)...not a boy..! What do a boy knows? Pretending to be sweet upon her eyes? The word pretending = hypocrite. Or even changed for her? Or making her changed for him? Then, why say "I will accept you the way you are." Is that even true? Does he even knows what she wants? Stalking her around when she is out with her friends? Sending her messages for every minute? Don't she deserve at least a leisure without worrying her phone? Or forcing her to pick up his calls? Spending the weekends with him instead of her own family? Ordering her around like a trained puppy? Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Yes, I admit it! It's freedom what I need. Freedom to make me miss you more. Freedom to make me love you more without feeling bored. Freedom to be yours. Freedom to be me. This freedom I need, can you just understand? Now you said you want me back? Is that even possible? This heart of mine, was torn into pieces..luckily there's a lot of sticky glues on sale at the shop. They can held every pieces for a moment until someone new save it. :DDD but you and I, we were a mistake.